WE'RE PREGNANT!!!

YUP, YOU READ CORRECTLY! WE FOUND OUT YESTERDAY THAT WE ARE SIX WEEKS PREGNANT!!! NEVER EXPECTED THIS TO HAPPEN, BUT LET ME TELL YA, WE ARE SOOOOOOO EXCITED. KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYERS THAT THE BABE IS HEALTHY AND I'M ABLE TO CARRY HIM/HER TO FULL TERM. THE DOCTOR SAID EVERYTHING LOOKED GREAT YESTERDAY SO FAR. I GO FOR MY SECOND ULTRA SOUND ON WEDNESDAY AND WE ARE HOPING TO HEAR THE BUMBLES HEART BEAT!!!
WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO

Talk about a faith challenge! Throughout my christian journey i have been challenged often my life circumstances and just by my own self doubting heart at times. Each day brings a new set of hurdles to overcome. Each day brings new opportunity to either hold fast to the promises of God or rely on my own feeble ideas and emotions. Each day is a clean slate, free from the mistakes of yesterday... free from the disappointments and all the ways i let my God down.. So often, sad to say i only remember all the ways i continuously fail my God and my heart refuses to rest in His grace and forgiveness. Its crazy really.... One would think that if we were always aware of Gods forgiveness we might take advantage of his loving kindness and choose to sin more. For me the opposite has been true. When i am aware, i mean truly aware of the forgiveness offered to me in Christ. When i am reminded that my slate is wiped clean each day... When I am confident that God truly has my back, loves me and desires for me to draw near to him regardless of how dirty my hands may be... it is in those times my heart and faith are renewed and i feel able to withstand temptation. It is in those times my heart rejoices in the love of God and i am excited and desiring to please him! During the times my heart feels condemned, broken, unworthy.... Those are the times i am tempted to look at myself and i am reminded i do not measure up. I feel unable to draw near to my God for fear i will be rejected.. whats the use... Today is a new day and although i am not worthy.. although i am filthy i will treasure and cling to the truth that i am washed clean in Christ! I am a saint! I am his child!
Lord i thank you for all the blessings you have bestowed upon me this day.... Thank you God for you son and for the possibility for me to know you. thank you for seeking me and loving me even though i am unlovable! Father i ask your forgiveness for all the ways i let you down each day. forgive me for not clinging to you each day. Please draw me to yourself in a new and fresh way today.. remind me of your unfailing love, patience and desire to make me more like yourself! Please fill my heart anew with your holy spirit and grow my dependence on you!
i love you lord.....