My heart overflows.......

At times its amazingly difficult to maintain friendships. I'm the type of person that wears my heart on my sleeve, showing my true self regardless of how ugly or beautiful i may appear to others. The good, bad, ugly, selfish, selfless, etc.. i just let it all hang out just because that's who i am. I was raised in a family with lots of problems, we're talking issues out the ying yang folks!!! My mom always told me not to broadcast my problems on the street, but to keep "our" issues in our home! I followed this rule until early adulthood/late teen years until i felt i was about to burst! There is so much freedom in being who you are, issues and all! People don't always understand or know what to say, or how to react. However, it's their problem if they lack the passion, empathy, and life experience it takes to still respect and love people regardless of their background or current issues! I am so thankful for the lessons learned as a result of my painful life experiences. Those hurtful situations have helped mold me into the person Jesus desires me to be. The past year has been tremendously difficult due to some once again, insanely hurtful circumstances. I feel grateful for those of you who have walked along side of me during this time! God truly used you to help mend my heart! I feel so blessed for having experienced this crazy situation! I know that sounds so unrealistic and nonhuman. I promise you from the bottom of my heart God is so amazing and He has truly transformed my life and heart by allowing me to go through this! So much good has come as a result of what was truly ugly! At times i feel the painful sting from the judgement others dish out regarding my life! All i have to say is whatev!!! I am me....I cannot apologize for some of the things I've gone through. Sometimes it feels like people put us on a pedestal, thinking we are better than we actually are. Like we are incapable of experiencing certain trials, or causing them for that matter. Those who act like they have it all together are doing just that, acting! I truly believe we all have issues, baggage, etc... Generally people feel afraid to share what's really going on for fear of being judged, or others measuring them up! Just a hint of advice people, we all fall short! Christ is the true measure and guess what, you fail, i fail, we all fail the test! some people are spared various hurts in this life! praise God if this statement applies to you! Many of us will walk through the fire various times in this life! Praise God he is there to walk beside us and turn what was intended for harm into something beautiful! Lets all try to be that person God can use to demonstrate his love and grace to those hurting people amidst their tumultuous situations!