The Burden of Infertility

Many people can relate to this topic, for i know i do not walk this road individually. Infertility... something i never dreamed of facing. I always took for granted the ability to become pregnant, thinking it would be easy and natural.
~ We tried to conceive throughout the first few years of marriage always ending with the same result.. no baby! We attributed our unsuccessfulness to wrong timing. We never really tried wholeheartedly to become pregnant until about three years ago. After being unsuccessful for several months, we began to question our ability to become pregnant. We sought help from my OBGYN, hoping to hear everything was ok. My doctor ordered some tests, after which i was told i was not ovulating. He immediately put me on clomid for six months. He believed my problem was minimal, and assured us not to worry, that we would be pregnant within three to five months. Well, the six months was over, and still no baby. He referred us to a specialists in Grand Rapids. I didn't feel ready to see a specialist, after all, we had only been trying this medication for six months. I felt rushed, as though he was pushing us into infertility treatments that may not be necessary. I chose to get a second opinion from a doctor in Traverse City. A few people i knew had seen doctors at that practice, and had become pregnant after trying the medication glucophage for six months. I requested to be put on that medication, just to see if it would work. He seemed to think it would not work, since this medication worked similar to clomid. Well, after trying the second medication and still no baby, we decided to go to the doctor in grand rapids. I was so afraid of what i might hear regarding our ability to conceive. The good news was that i have plenty of eggs, twice the amount most women have. The bad news; because i have so many eggs, my brain will not allow my body to ovulate because the result could be an ovulation of over 12 eggs. Crazy... So our options were presented to us: continue with light infertility medications, try heavy infertility meds, or do IVF. We were cautioned not to dabble with the heavy medications due to my overabundance of eggs because my doctor would be unable to control how many eggs my body would release. So basically we could do IVF, or wait for the possibility that my body would eventually decrease the amount of eggs i have, and i could become pregnant naturally. All this new information was too much to bear. Nick and I both had ethical issues with IVF. I was an emotional mess. We decided to back away from the infertility treatments for a while. Who knows what the future holds for us. Throughout this whole process our prayer was that God would bless us with a beautiful, healthy little baby. We also prayed that his will be done, and that he would give us a heart to accept his will, whatever that may be. We are still praying that prayer today!