Part One of My Journey

There was a time when merely existing in this world was a scary thing. So many fears and anxieties consumed my every thought. Past experiences and their effects wrecked havoc in my life. Facing these unruly emotions was not possible then. Running seemed like the only option. I attempted to squash the pain, guilt, fear, and anxiety i felt in numerous ways, although none were productive, nor beneficial. Life seemed hopeless... bleak... I felt unlovable, alone... I saught security, love and acceptance in relationships, which i soon found was utterly impossible. How could one sinful human being truly and wholeheartedly satisfy another. Where was I to turn? Was there any hope? How could i go on living a life so full of emptiness, pain, and regret?